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RIGHT PEOPLES as you can see my journal is now FRIENDS ONLY. This may change in the future but for now this is how its gonna be. If you dont like it, HHHUUUMMM, LUMP IT!!!!!!!

HOWEVER, if you wanna read my ramblings hit me up with a post and I'll more than likely add you.

SAFE

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!!**EDIT!**!!

Wow, had to update this to make the date further afield than before hehe.

Can you guys either send me on here your email address' or drop a mail to

xevrgrx@googlemail.com

So I can then forward the questions on to you.

Hope to hear from you guys soon

Andrew

Right people,

I woke up this morning with a re-newed want to start up my idea for a book.

SO! If I draw up some questions, would the tattooed among you be prepared to answer a few questions and have some pictures taken of your tattoos? Depending on the success, I may keep this to my friends and peoples I know at the moment.

Lemme know if you are up for it or would know people who would be.

Thank you guys

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CLICK THE BANNER TO ENTER THE COMPETITION!

AS SOME OF YOU WILL KNOW MY GIRLFRIEND WORKS FOR RESOURCES FOR AUTISM AND AM SO HAPPY TO HAVE THE SUPPORT OF THE LOSTPROPHETS BOYS!

PLEASE NOTE THE COMPETITION RUNS FOR TWO WEEKS ONLY,
SO THE CLOSING DATE IS MONDAY 4TH DECEMBER 2006.



PLEASE FEEL FREE TO COPY AND REPOST THIS MESSAGE :)

THE DIRECT LINK TO THE COMPETITION IS
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to start felling better and may be start hating.

Fucking Parkway Drive - "Gimme a D" it is!

Just wish I could fucking blare this shit out to everyone and make them listen to this shit and kick some poor unsuspecting people in the head! I need some serious aggression outlet!

AND MY FUCKING PHONE RINGS! BASTARD!

But they fucked up and are calling back, hahahah! Knowing my luck, I'll get the call again!

OH WELL!

AAAAHHHH Blastbeats, LOVE IT!!!..... Guitar leads, YES! COME ON, WANT MY BEATDOWN! hehehehe.

Good news, Charlotte has got her appointment with Davide Anderoli for the London Tattoo Covention AND the sucker is only charging her like £120 for getting both her wrists done! RESULT! Gonna be so fucking good.

Take a look at his stuff peeps, proper STUNNING!

Davide Andreoli

Lemme know what you think peoples!

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it hurt so much when the person you are kinda involved with (not love but just like) doesn't get back to any msg's you have sent?

It's like it takes so much for me to put energy and stuff when I'm into someone that when they don't reply or anything it just makes me think the worst!

I know I am stupid and I sometimes think too much which is stupid because most of the time, I don't think at all!

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that when you send someone a msg and an email that is so putting things on the line and spelling it out and everything, they don't get back to you?!?!

I am now second guessing everything now and after the last couple of days, this is not how I thought things were gonna go.

I fucking hate myself for feeling like this but I can't help it and after talking things through with the people involved (well one anyway) I just to tell this person howI feel and how much they mean to me but I can't.

Me being me, I'm now so paranoid as fuck and sacreed that I am being ignored (which I'm more than likely not) but it still scares me and evene hurts because all I want to do is talk to her. This is probably just pushing her away from me as I would find this annoying and shit too but I just want to know how she feels as I want to know if I am totally wasting my time, energy and love!

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PS, And yes this is a post to a very select few, don't worry!

Hey there peoples!

Just wanted to see if anyone has or knows of people getting Magpies (the bird) tattooed?

Because I have been thinking about getting something on the front of my hips for ages and as everyone is going for guns, I don't want that. Was thinking about two really big roses but already have 5 and then after looking through the most recent issue of Total Tattoo Magazine and saw a picture of what could be two love birds / finches that some one has had Ian Flower tattooed on them i was thinking about getting some birds as not many people have them. After thinking about it for a while, I though of something that can represent something postive and as I am trying to surround myself with postive things (as I can be a little too negative) I would like to have two magpies tattooed on me.

I''m not sure if people know but there is saying that we have over in England and as I only rememeber some of it... here is as much as I can remember. When you see one magpie you have to say "good morning your lordship, how are the wife and children" as seing one magpie is kind of bad luck or "Sorrow" however seeing two together stands for "Joy" and this is something I want and need to bring into my life right about now.

Please let me know of your ideas and if anyone knows o any picutres then please feel free to post them.

Thank you peoples!

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poo!

Tis rubbish really.

I also forgot my sodding wallet and although I have £19 to last me 3 weeks I still needed to buy something to fucking eat today. Hopefully my mate who sits next to me at work will give me a few squid as I came in ranting I left it all at home. David is such a nice guy man even if he does completly love a girl called Kat (I must admit, she is fit as tho, hehehehe).

God, there is so mich that has happened recently but I don't know if I can / should put it down on here.

I have had such mixed up, screwed up, fucked up feelings recently that have gone back and forth so many times that it is making my head hurt!

Well, lets start with some stuff then go from there!

Actually, this is gonna be a special friends only post so going to make sure I put it on the correct one now!

haha, DONE!

Right, me and Charlotte have broken up. We have been talking about things and I have said that there is no way I am going back unless I am 100% sure I will give it my all and I know exactly how I feel about her as after all the crap we went through when she thought that she didn't love me or could cope with me I just don't want to put her through anythign of the like again.

JESUS, I'm just thinking about all of this now and it has been so long since I put an update down that it really will take me "A Day & A Thousand Years" to put it all down.

What annoying is that I want to write it all down and kinda wanna put it out there but all my feelings are screwed, what I feel one min is not what I feel later. No matter how convinced I am about one thing, a little knock later and I'm the other end of the scale.

I'm starting to see why people call me cryptic, hahahaha. My shit is all over the place, as is my life.

When all is said and done I have been talking to all concerend and trying to let them now exatly how I am feeling.

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PS, Remember, this is a special friends only post. Only you can see it, which means that only we can see the comments too. Please let me know what you think!


(Anyone notice my Walls Of Jericho reference, hehehe)

How fucking shit can one person's life be at any one time?

People dying all around you, tons of friends and family being miserable and hurting.

It sounds really weird but I enevious of my best mate Simon. He is finally happy with the person he is with and really cares about her and he even looks happy which doesn't sound like a lot but if you knew him then you would understand.

After talking for a bit, me & Charlotte went on a break on Saturday afternoon but by Saturday night, I couldn't face hurting her by doing this so I said I wanted to end it.

This will seem really dumb, mad, stupid etc to anyone that has read my LJ over the last 8 months or so and known how great Charlotte is and how much she has done for me but when you are having the amount of doubts about being in a relationship that I am then you would doubt being with the perfect person too!

I know that I will regret breaking up with her in one respect but I also know that I need this space right now and if I can't get this space I need then I will end up resenting her like I did and do Steph (the ex) now! As longer readers will know I tried to walk out on Steph on several occasions but she always covinced me to come back but in the long run it made for nothing more than pushing me away from her and this is the worst thing that could happen to Charlotte and I.

Not only this but Bobby isn't talking to me at all really as..... shit, gonna need to go into everything that happened on Sat before I say all this.

Right, Saturday morning Charlotte & Bobby go to pick up Charlotte's sister as they were spending the day out with her and as I wanna in the bath getting ready to go meet some of my mates down at The Underworld as their band Love That Kills were first band on supporting Parkway Drive, Remembering Never & headliners Shai Hulud and while in the bath got a text from Bobby saying that "We need to talk" and me not being completely fucking stupid, I knew what he meant but played a little dumb. He then said that he wasn't happy with how I was treating Charlotte and blah blah blah and I needed to explain myself to him. OH REALLY? My arse I do! I then sent him a fuck long txt (5 txts long) about how I'm feeling and stuff and although I was pissed about how he said it and stuff I told him straight out how I was feeling and stuff. He then msg'd back saying "he has never stepped in on any of Charlotte's relationships but he is now" and he "will come down on me like a tons of bricks" if I upset her. I said to him that I was trying to be civilised in the txt and explain how I am feeling but if he wants to be a prick about it then he can fuck off and I don't give a shit about what he says. He then txt back saying I should care because Charlotte means the world to him (well fucking duh you twat!) but she obviously doesnt to me (erm.. yeah course son!) and after much more rambling I accidently just textd the word "I" to him and he text back saying "Says it all really" & I flew off the handel, told him to fuck off, leave me alone, not reply, not talk to me or anything and he had the fucking cheek to say "What was I supposed to say? You sent me a blank text" SO? Prick, don't say shit you fucking cunt!

I seriously wanna just get the fuck out because I don't wanna live with someone that will just switch on me like that. I can't take his fucknig temper and need to shout at fucking everything. Yeah, I am negi but everything needs to be shouted at or needs a really loud response and it fucks me off. I can't do anything about this because that is him and you can't change that.

What's annoying is that I am always told that I have to make compromises about shit when people have pissed me off but when I have pissed other people off I am always the one that needs to back down because it is easier HOWS ABOUT FUCK OFF & NO!

Anyways, moving on.

They end up coming back to the house as her sis wanted to watch Mission Impossible, Bob came into see me as I had only just got out of the bath and tried talking to me but I was making it as hard for him to talk to me as possible because I saw he being a fucking vile cunt that I didn't want to talk to but he kept on. I will give him that he made some fair comments and I agreed that I don't wanna upset Charlotte but if I was in any wrong about the way we talked to each other then he was too and for fucknig once I WILL NOT BACK DOWN! He will fucknig take notice and not dimiss what I am saying or how I feel about this. His opinion means nothing to me now, after I have seen this side of him, I care for him less and fucking less.

I really do think that our relationship has suffered because of mine and Charlotte's relationship. Almost like I was putting all my efforts into Charlotte and not into anyone else but that's kinda how I am, my parents are very like that. Only recently have they started to go out and do things again as oppossed to 6 odd years ago when they did nothing bar stay in and NEVER go out.

As someone said to me recently, I do go off on tangents.

I'm just really confused, I need my own space to do things and do what I wanna do.

This is yet another song that has effected me recently. I don't give a fuck if it is by a Ska Punk band, it is a brilliant song that people need to check out!

( The Rest Of My Life )

does anyone else find it REALLY REALLY FUNNY that FINALLY people are waking up the the fact that Kate Moss is a drugged up fucking CRACK WHORE?????. First that fucking tempertantrum cunt Niaomi Cambell is found out to be a CHARLIE HEAD and has been sent to anger theraphy classes and now this, HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

I fucknig hate these minging fucking that help NORMAL FUCKING WOMEN FELL LIKE SHIT BECAUSE THEY ARENT A FUCKING SIZE 6 (4 for the Americans out there) OR AN 8! FUCK YOU ALL..... or as Tupac said it

"Fuck You all, Die Slow mother fucker, my ..44 make sure ALL your kids dont grow!!"

I have so much fucking comtempt for these fuckers!!! & not just these two, people like Sophie fucking Dahl that came out first time saying she loves being a bigger size model and now she is like a fucking 8 and saying how much she hated being bigger, FUCK YOU!!!!

LONG LIVE REAL FUCKING WOMEN!!!, FUCK YOUR BOTTLE BLONDE, STICK THIN VERSION OF PERFECTION. IT'S A LIE AND THE NATION LET ALONE THE WORLD CAN NOT WAKE UP TO THE FACT THAT REAL BEAUTY IS NOT IN A FUCKING BOTTLE OR IN A BODY THAT CAN FIT INTO SIZE 8 CLOTHES!!!!!!

Rant over............ FOR NOW!!!!!!!

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Andrew
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EDIT

If I'm wrong, tell me. If I'm right, TELL ME!!!!

the new albums by......



and the new Funeral For A Friend.

SAFE

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Andrew
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You scored 23...

You are ERNIE
You are fun and popular. You are a real crowd pleaser. You have probably been out on the town your share of times, yet you come home with the values that your mother taught you. Marriage and children are important to you, but only after you have fun. Don't let the people you please influence you to stray.


http://www.savethegoldfish.co.uk/fun/muppet.php





See this is why the english are better, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

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I just thought I would like to share a couple of photos of my friend Femke from belgium. This girl (OH HOW FUNNY, thats her name on Myspace) has dramtically changed her image recently from this......



TO THIS!!!!!





I was on MSN last friday and she comes online, we say hi and stuff and she says she has a new tattoo and sends me the link to her page. I click on it thinking that it was gonna be some not too big and she would still be looking the same BUT WHAT A GREAT SURPRISE!!!! So much so that I lost my breathe and was FUCKING STUNNED TO SAT THE LEAST!!!!!

I can't tell you how great this girl is man. She is SSSOOO down to earth, loves her music and feels very strongly about things but would NEVER impose her ideas and ideals on others, which is great and how I wish everyone would be.

If you ever read this babe, YOU RULE & LOVE YOU LOADS!!!!! COME BACK AND SEE US ALL SOON!!!!!

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PS, I showed these pics to my friend Anthony at work and he is now in love and my mate Newman wants her too, hehehehe.

There are lots of photos in this one

( Drew's BBQ and that fucking awful club in poncy fucking Old St )

want to hate the new Funeral For A Friend as the Bassest Gareth is a fucking prick (cant be arsed to go into why) and I have never heard about a good thing about them as people apart from Matt the singer as when ever I see him he is really safe to me BUT It does indeed fucking KILL!!!!! & Im not joking.

There is a song call "End Of Nothing" which has a PHAT PHAT fucking beatdown in it and I can really see people going fucking mad for it & the lyrics are pretty fucking good as well.

Another album that I cant stop listening to is the new Darkest Hour, FUCK ME!!!! Its a bit different to their usual straight ahead demolish a core At The Gates rip offs (not that they aint good) but it does sound very mature for them. They have put in some melodies as well becuase lets be honest, they did have a tendency to sound a bit samey sometimes.

Anyone else aquired any really good albums recently?

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Andrew
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The Rules
1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

I was interviewed by butibleedmyself.

1. What's your favorite tattoo you have and why?

Erm..... probably my Sacred Heart and Roses OR My Butterfly.
Because I think it one of the best, not the best of the bunch but i just means more to me. & the Butterfly because its just really pretty. They were both done by one of my best mates.

2. How did "Safe!" originate?
FUCKS KNOWS!!!! Its been around for years now. I remember hearing it like back in 96 or even before that.

3. What's the best thing about living in England?
ERM.... we get decent bands playing, American, European or beyond. Erm..... not sure whatelse tho... hehehehe

4. What size shoes do you wear?
Between a 7 1/2 8. A 8 - 9 for you guys.

5. How do you manage to pull off wearing a pink belt?
Probably because Im just TOO FUCKING GOOD HAHAHAHAHAHA

A BIT BATTY!!!!!!

Its ok, but the vocals are what brings it down. The music is PHENOMINAL!!!! but the vocals a bit a fucking shit. Yeah, he was never really the greatest singer but hey, it worked but now I dunno what he thinks he is doing PLUS its all singing and no growls or anything.... OH SORRY PEOPLES, I FORGOT. Its their major label debut, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH now I know why.

New Finch SUCKS FUCKING COCK SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BADLY

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